Perhaps all the dragons in our lives are princesses who are only waiting to see us act, just once, with beauty and courage. Perhaps everything that frightens us is, in its deepest essence, is something helpless that wants our love. ~ Rainer Maria Rilke
I remember the first day of school and having to go around and introduce yourself in all the classes. I hated those days. I never knew what to say and so here I am all these years later making a bio for our website and I still don't know what to say.
To me my life is very everyday ordinary. It is a good life and I have had lots of twists in turns, but finally it has come to a place of peace and calm.
I started in D/s when I was 18, but did not know that there was a name for what I was doing. The man I was dating brought out desires and needs in me that I did not know were there. I felt like finally like the thing I had been missing was suddenly looking back at me in the mirror….me. I guess for me I feel I was seeing my true authentic self.
He had lots of control over me - almost as if we were 24/7 but we were not. He would tell me who I could see, where I could go, what I would wear, what to eat, when I should speak, when I should remain quiet, and many other things. He then gradually introduced me to SM and I loved it right away also.
Things in this man's life started to go not so well and so things between him and I started to go not so well also. After he ended it with me, I pretty much turned to the first "vanilla" boy I could find. Jim ended up being my husband. I again was in that stage of feeling like something was missing even though I loved Jim.
I went away to school and met a wonderful, beautiful woman and fell head over heels in love. It is weird as I sit here and type this I was thinking that I never have included her in my bio before…I guess part of me pretends she was not a part of my life so that I don't feel the pain. But really the pain is still there.
Her name was Morgan. I met her my first day at college. We had a relationship that did not need explanations or figuring out because it felt right...we were just Morgan and Danae. She ended up being killed in a car accident that year. And so I lost her and I felt I lost myself. And I made many mistakes with her and regret all that I put her through.
I was still involved with Jim while I saw her. She knew about him, but he did not know about her. So again I turned and threw myself into the life with Jim. Jim and I were compatible on many levels, but I still felt like something was missing. We were married for 7 years. During our marriage, he bought us a computer. I was searching bulletin boards one night for some information and I happened upon a D/s board and from the first post - felt something inside me stir. I tried to introduce D/s to my husband, but that did not work.
Along with some other issues we had, I ended up leaving. I moved to Ohio. And started pursuing the D/s lifestyle.
I have been in 4 significant D/s relationships...including one in a poly household as a slave for 2 years. I have also had play partners and bottomed. Currently I am the willing captive of Master. He is a wonderful Man. He is sadistic, but also so compassionate and loving. Master and I are working on a path where I will eventually surrender all that I am to Him. Each day I grow closer to and closer to that place of surrender. I look forward to that day.
Other interests include art, reading writing, cooking, Buddhism, progressive politics, tarot, and many other things. I am a mix media artist. I am exploring Buddhism. I do my best to create a happy, nice home for Master. So I like anything that deals with being domestic - cleaning, serving, cooking, hand crafts to make Master's home warm and inviting.
I try to live my life to the fullest...laughing often, living passionately and loving deeply.
There are lots of different facets to me. I am intense, passionate and serious about life. I want it all. And I am going to that place with Master - having it all.
peace & serenity,